If one day you discover him
Broken down he's lost everything
No cars, no fancy clothes to make him who he's not
The woman at his side is all that he has got
Why do you ask him move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth?

Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire
Would he give his life up
To be all he can
Is that, is that, is that how you measure a man?

If by chance all he had to give you
Was three words wrapped around your finger
Would that be deep enough at the end of every day
And how will you ever know
If a man is what he says?
Why do you ask him to move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth

Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire
Would he give his life up to be all he can
Is that, is that, is that how you measure a man?

He never gives up
Lets go of his dream
His world goes around for his one true belief
Is that how you know
Is that what it means?

Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
Would he will be your anchor when the dark unfolds
Would he always love you the best that he knows?
Would he give his life up
To be all that he can
Is that, is that, is that how you measure a man?

Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire
Would he give his life up
To be all he can
Is that, is that, is that, how you measure
oh...Is that, is that, is that, how you measure a man?

To Healers

As Far as i'm concerned, we are all healers, in our own right, in what we do each and everyday, we heal or hurt the people around us. In the simple act of listening, we are healing a person. By Showing a little more attention to what someone is saying, that in itself heals a lot more than a pill.

Saying that we are healers in our own right, is a very big statement. Its a very big thing.
Think about it, We hold the lives of everybody we come across in our hands. To make these lives better, or to inflict endless pain and misery. Which would you choose?

Show true care and concern for our fellow Man, actually love and care for a complete stranger.
Stop and help someone up when that person falls. Stop to check when someone has an accident, instead of driving past just to take a look, or to take down the license plate number.

Why do we have to put on a facade? Why stop ourselves from helping someone when he or she is in trouble? Why look at someone different just because this person doesn't know something?
In truth, are any of us better than anyone else? We're all special in different ways, we're all good and different things. Does having more money and more knowledge make someone better that another? I think not! So, that being false, why do we still do it? Each time we do that, we hurt a person, we harm a person. Each time the pain goes deeper, the pain hurts more.

As Healers, we must stop, we must make sure of ourselves. By stopping, and treating each person as we would treat ourselves, the hurting would stop, the depressed wouldn't be so depressed. There'd be so much less emotional trouble in people....

It doesn't take much to stop yourselves from doing so does it? Think about it......


Prayer for the healer
Lord, give me a Heart that feel.
Give me hands that heal.
Give me eyes that see both inside and out.
Give me lips that speak care and concern.
Give me a mind that thinks of ways to heal.

Lord, Help me heal in my every action.
And Love with every decision.
Help me show care with every word,
And show concern in every expression.
Help me see with your eyes,
And let me know how to heal.

Help me feel yet not impede.
Help me see yet not turn away.
Help me speak the truth and not shy away from it.

Amen.

Missing my Other Half

Seems so apt.... Was just thinking about my dearest when this song played.....
Just that our situations aren't a lost as the 2 mice on american tail, but still it fits...
Gosh i miss her so much....
Anyway.. that's all actually....
good night guys...
good night baby... love you...

Somewhere Out There
written by James Horner, Barry Mann, Cynthia Weil

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight
Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

its been a while

Its been awhile hasn't it? Thought my blogging days were over... well i guess not.. lol
Sighz.. where to start? Life's alright i guess... A good mix of Work, School and My loved ones.....
Ada's still in my life.... Well, actually she's part of my life now.... In fact part of my life for the rest of it....

Ada went to Australia for 2 weeks. She's comin back tomorrow. Missed her so much....
Amazing though, i came to a lot of conclusions when she was there.... most of it about how i felt about her.

About what i thought and how i felt? well it can all be summed up the fact that i was this close to talking to Uncle Wilson ( her dad ) and asking him if i would have his blessing for marrying Ada... Then i'd have gone to the jewelers after pay day and buy what i could afford......
It was an impulse thought though. Cause after that i realized that its too early for me to do that, especially with her parents. Not until she finishes her studies.

See... Proper respect to your other half's parents. ask them before asking your other half to marry you..... Chinese culture i guess.... They happened to bring that up in a passing conversatoin.... lol Yeah i'm takin notes.....

Anyway back to the topic.... Yup, I'm serious about this..... Dead Serious.... In my mind, and in my heart, i want to marry Ada...... A decision that isn't borne on impulse..... its been carefully thought througha nd i realize that honestly in truth, now that i have her in my life.... i can't imagine life without her... just thinking about it breaks my heart....... We've been together for about a year plus now....

its had its joys and sadness, its had its ups and downs.... There've been more Ups than downs though and a lot of porblems and conflicts we've had with each others character we've managed to work out.... I'll be the first to admit, we've still a ways to go... but doesn't everyone?

It seems to me that its unspoken, but Ada and i seem to have always agreed that we'll work things out hand in hand and journey through the rest of our lives together...

When i look back at my past history.... of all my past relationships.... there've been many... all didn't last more that a few months.... this is the first relationship that's long term....
We found each other wanting and looking for the same things yet at the same time being able to provide what each of us needed and wanted......

I may day dream and wonder at times what it'd be like if my past with someone else was different, but in the end i always come back to one thought.... Which is: I wouldn't trade what i have now for anything.

Below, Its our song.... Cheesy i know.... but its the song that till now, best describes how i feel for her..... Enjoy guys! Till next time... Ta Ta....

Title: Greatest Story Ever Told
Artist: Oliver James
Album: What a girl wants soundtrack

Thank you for this moment
I've gotta say how beautiful you are
Of all the hopes and dreams
I could've prayed for
Here you are
If I could have one dance forever
I would take you by the hand
Tonight it's you and I together
I'm so glad I'm your man

And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you tonight?

I don't hear the music
When I'm lookin' in your eyes
But I feel the rhythm of your body
Close to mine
It's the way we touch that sends me
It's the way we'll always be
Your kiss, your pretty smile, you know I'd die for
Oh baby, you're all I need

And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you?
Just how much I really need you?
Did I tell you that I love you tonight?
Tonight...

And if I lived a thousand years
You know I never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny decided I should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you?
Just how much I really need you?
Did I tell you that I love you tonight?

Singapore Idol

I honestly don't understand this whole singapore idol phenomenon......
I don't understand the judges......
I don't understand how Singapore votes.... i mean, the pure fact that Jerry Ong and Christopher Lim are still in the competition..... They both can't sing, can't dance. Well, they are all brave, that's one thing.... You know, when they brought back all the ones that really couldn't sing, like the careless whisper guy, i'd feel really insulted if i was one of them. Mediacorp was just all out to humiliate them.... For those of you who watched it, you saw the wardrobe..... They were told to put it on, all those victorian dresses and all that.... it was purely a show to humiliate them.... Talk about totally un-professional and just plain mean. It s too much that you do that to a person just to get ratings and people to watch the show. I can't believe that mediacorp has had to result to such means. I guess singapore idol really sucked that bad, to the point where they have to resort to such kinds of cruel gimmicks.

It really pissed me off, especially cause i know "the pink lady", at least i know of her. She's Claire's sister. I mean the kind of things they did, it would scar a person for life. Especialy with all the media attention. How reporters tell the person that "they HAVE to be interviewed", that they "can't say no". I mean what happened to the journalistic ethics of these people? To alter the truth and alter the interview of what was said? Has mordern day media sunk to the point where facts and truth have to be altered and changed till it isn't the truth anymore, just to sell more magazines?

What's worse is that whilst Singapore Idol has carried on, the judges comments seem to be getting worse! Unconstructive, useless, hurting, mean, comments that have no sense what so ever and have no relation to singing or the person's voice? Where will it stop? I want an idol that isn't afraid of showing who she really is. I want an idol who can truly sing. I want an idol who isn't afraid to show the world who she really is and not conform to current trends and sing what she wants to sing and portrays herself to the world as herself and not what image consultants want her to be.

I guess you can guess who i'm rooting for eh? Heh.... Its definately a female.. haha
Yeap its Olinda Cho. i think she has the best voice out of all of them, she may not be the best looking, but definately the best sounding.

There's a big difference between AMI and SGI...... AMI, well, lets face it, they have the voice, they have the power, they have the looks, they have the better judges. Judges who give constructive critisisms and are supportive. Judges who aren't down right mean. Simon Cowell? Yeah he may sound mean, but he does have a right to be. He is an idol shaper. What do we have? Dick Lee or should i say "Dickless" Lee, Florence something, Douglas Oliviero and Ken Lim.... Dick is just plain insulting in his comments, Florence? i don't even know what she's looking for in our Singapore Idol wanna be's, Douglas O? He isn't very much helpful in his comments. He just says things that have no value in helping the person improve. Ken? His comments, too confusing, he beats around the bush and is too vague......

See the difference?????

Perhaps you might think i'm being too critical, that i should cut SGI some slack? I won't.... They want our idol to be able to sell records? i tell you honestly, it won't sell well.....
In the end the person's just gonna end up being roped into acting for media corp. Look what hapened to Darren Seah? he's a damn good singer, but no album, no singing carreer, what's he doing now? Acting! Cherry Chocolate Candy, or CCC, They don't even get much exposure. How do you want the public to know that they have a CD out? CCC was more a dance act that a singing act anyway.

Lets face it and be honest, until we cultivate talent and truly look for it, the music scene in singapore, especially the english music scene will never take off..... there are so many really really good ones found playing in pubs and bars, but no one's offered them a contract before..... Even our local Acapella groups aren't well known, and i tell you, they are damn frigging good.

Cheesed off i am..... I just find it unfair and sad that its sunk to this point. With all this talk about Singapore being an art nation, wanting to promote the arts in Singapore, what's actually been done about it? building the esplanade? yeah it helped, but couldn't more funds been used to promote and nurture local groups?

Its sad, just really sad....... I pray i see the day when Singapore has its own music scene, and not one that's underground and buried....... Anyway, its late, i've said my peace.

Nights people....

..marcus..

Back at last

Finally back and blogging again. Haven't been blogging in ages, haven't been able to find time to sit in front of the computer and actually type out something. What's been taking up my time? Mostly its been NS. Am posted to Bishan firestation. Even though i have a lot of breaks in my schedule, i need those breaks to rest and catch up with my loved ones. especially Ada, my dear.

SO an update into what's been in my mind the last few months? not really possible. to my close friends, they know that i have the memory of a goldfish, so i'll just type what i can remember.

The biggest thing on my mind recently, is pretty much abt a friend who's been having major problems at home. Family and all that. I'm not at liberty to discuss the details. but in a nut shell, pretty much been very concerned for this friend cause this friend of mine is very young. I can only pray that the scars left behind from whatever's happened will help my friend grow and learn from these lessons.

I guess maturity does play a big part in our lives. its not so much of acting maturely, but of being capable of becoming a mature person when the situation calls for it. We may all need attention and we try to seek it in all sorts of ways, but sometimes, too much attention is a bad thing too. I guess to know that there is a group of friends behind you and supporting you all the way is the best remedy, to know that this group of friends will love you and support you, no matter what happens.

I'm glad that right now, RCIY is forming into such a group. everyone is getting to know each other and opening up. We're pretty much one big family. That's the way it should be right? Its the best way to grow in the faith. By being able to experience God's love through friends who are going through the same journey as you are.

I guess much like exploring the faith is a journey, so is life. In fact, life's the biggest journey of all. The hardest lessons come from life. I'm still on my life path, figuring out where my choices are going to take me and to what end it'll bring me too........

I can only pray i'm following the path God has set for me. I can only hope that i'm helping the people around me follow God's path. Sometimes i wonder how big an impact i've made on people's lives, the people that have walked in and out of mine. Have i touched their lives in anyway? big or small?

I guess these are questions i will never have the answer to. All i know is that, Life has its ups and downs. The downs always seem larger than the ups, but my friend once told me, the only thing you end up remembering, is the ups. Focus on the bright side of things and everything will look up. Be mature when you have to be, but also be yourself, and being yourself is the most important thing. Look for the friends who are true to you, who give you support when you mist need it, who give you love when you are at the coldest and loneliest point. These are the friends who'll ride it out with you for life. These are the friends who know what it means to love unconditionally, to love like christ.

Night's people.... May the light of christ shine upon you through your friends, and may the warmth of love enfold you in God's arms... Till next time.

..marcus..

A Reflection

Its not an easy ride being in a relationship.......
There are lots of up's an down's.... Arguments happen, its all part of being in one.
It hasn't been an easy 3 months to reach the point of openness Ada and i are at now.
Thank goodness for the both of us, we both want to settle arguments as they arise and never let a sun set on it.

It takes time for people to open up. It took time for the both of us. judinging by other people's time, it took us a short while, but for others it takes a while. Patience is the key to a lot of things.
A lot of life lessons were laernt teh hard way, for the both of us. We were able to get to the point where we are at now is because we've both been through hell and back.

A breakup isn't an easy thing to go through, we both had to go through 2 very tough relationships and breakups to learn what we know. I guess it comes with age and experiences. Ada and i, we both have found heaven in each others embrace. the bad relationships in the past have taught us to know and find what we want in our life partner. I guess in each other, we've found it.

Problems arise, as is natural when 2 people are involved in something bigger than themselves. The key to a lot of things is patience, especially in a relationship. The other key, is perserverance. Not giving up and always believeing that its gonna work. Miracles happen when you believe. In a relationship, a lot of it is about waiting.

The important thing to know is that, when problems arise, hold each other's hand and walk through the problem together. Yes, i know that at times it seems impossible and is super tough, but grit your teeth and get through it. It'll only serve a purpose to bring the 2 people involved closer together. A relationship isn't that much different from a very close friendship. the only exception being that the emotional attachment to the person is much much deeper.

As with all friendships and relationships, communication is important. yet, to reach a deep level of communication also takes time. Time and Patience, to wait for the other person to open up. It does take a while for one to be comfortable with another. Sometimes it takes a long while, but never give up and the end result will be so beautiful.

These are things that i've found out, from experiences, from talking to Ada, from experiencing love.

that's about it.
enjoy.......