sigh.... todays just one of those days.... when u wish that u could wrap your arms around someone u love and just kiss them and hold them till u or the other person falls asleep..... u know one of those nighs for the lonely...... sigh..... i miss her..... so much it hurts (cliched i know, but it really does)

o well..... wat to do... letting go isn't easy when u can't bear to let go of it.... not when u know how much u love the person. my relationships b4 were based on physical attraction, but she's different, it wasn't physical... was something else.... can't describe it, it was just different.... love is weird.... heh... probably nothing else more contradictory in life besides love... one minute it tells u this, another minute it tells u the opposite.. confusion.... pure utter confusion... i'm amazed i'm still alive....

I'm not happy.......
Its F**king 7.50 in the f**king morning and i'm not happy.....
what happened? i got tickets to Lord of the rings preview a few days ago asked someone to go.. now she tells me she's sicka nd can't make it out. where the f**king hell am i going to find someone else to go, i don't wanna go alone.. no fun...... bloody hell, paid 20 bucks for the tickets okay.......

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