Check the song out.... I can relate to this song..... i know exactly how she's feeling when she wrote this......

Artist: Avril Lavigne
Album: Let Go
Title: I'm With You


I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you

I'm looking for a place
searching for a face
is there anybody here i know
cause nothings going right
and everythings a mess
and no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you

oh why is everything so confusing
maybe I'm just out of my mind
yea yea yea

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you

Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...

And thus, tis the early morn of New Years Eve, as the clock's hands enters the realm of early morning, when everyone else is asleep, here i am recollecting my thoughts as the year passes.... What an eventful year, not a good one, a year of troubles and sorrow, or trails and tribulations, of pain and rejection, of loss and loneliness....
What can i say.... the past 4 - 5 months of this year are recorded in this Blog, that i started when i felt i was about to snap and crack up under the emotional strain of my burdens and troubles, yet within the blog, are the memoirs of what were the only joyous moments i've felt within the year, as small and trivial they may seem, for without them, the year would have gone to hell, and myself to the deepest pit in Hades....

To the new people i've met, to the old friends i've lost forever, I thank you for the friendship nd love we've shared, however short or long, however smooth or shaky. For all the emotions we've shared and felt for each other, for all the words, be they hurtful, spiteful or encouraging and healing. For shattering my heart, to helping me mend what's left of it. For reviving my heat of stone, back to one that feels, and loves again. For keeping me company, in the cold and lonely nights, to leaving me on my own, to face my problems. For all the laughs and tears, thoughts and feelings. For Everything, be they bad or good, they have been special and have made an impact on this small person that is myself.

Tis the 31st, New year's eve, Passes the old year of 2002, and into the new year of 2003. Will i start of this New Year brightly, in the company of friends and family. Or will i spend as i have spent my birthday, Alone and miserable. I'm choosing the Former, to be in the company of my friends as i always have started the year, yet it is different for i shall begin it, on the stroke of Midnight, in church, with God, and the choir. The choice i have made, yet, will i be able to carry it through? For God holds my life in his hands, what i shall do is decided by him.

My thoughts lead through the year, from God, to Shao Bing breaking up with me, to my finding a friend in Daphne (both of them), to the loss of my friend, Amelia, to the reunion of old friendships, to discovering God again, to realizations and revelations of priesthood, to the spending of my Birthday with the Sec 3's, to the meeting of my cousin, to my trip to Vegas, to x'mas. Though scattered may my thoughts be, and i've lost a lot, yet gained a lot as well. i've learned and grown, i've changed and adapted.
I wouldn't trade a second of this year for they were there for a reason, to live to learn, to grow, for that is all God really want's to happen, to learn and love him more, to get to know him better as he already knows us so very well.

Thus with these final words i say good bye to this year and Hello to the next.
Good night one and all that read this blog, Into a new year we enter, together, hand in hand, in strength and love, but above all, In God.

..marcus..

Haha.... had quite an interesting day.... went for mass earlier, then went down to St Pat's for mass with the new CYF leaders, together with some other new members
Then when we got back to church, we all went for dinner together, at PastaMania in J8, after that as per norm, hung out at Bean, or as my friends in school and myself call it,
"kopi Ji" It means Coffee Bean in dialect.. haha...
Basically we hung out and talked crap lah.. haha

Anyway, why today was interesting, well, on Friday, i found out Jobeth was my LDC (Long Distance Cousin), so basically on the bus down to J8, Jobeth and i were explaining how we are related and how big our family was to Jacinta and Judette, did i mention that judette ah, she very cute.. haha...
anyway back to the topic, so anyway we were like counting off our family relatives.. those directly related to us lah.... i have like 12 cousins, she has 16 cousins..
so u think how big our family is?? haha.....
i won't bother typing out how jobeth and i are related lah, long long story. haha....
Anyway, at the table in pasta mania, Jobeth, Jacinta, Judette, EthelBert, Vanessa and myself. Shawn and Francisco joined us alittle later.
We were like talking abt Mrs Goh, cat high stuff, IJ stuff, LoTR stuff, basically a lot lah....
we ordered like 3 pizza's, 10" ones, hawaiian, BBQ chicken and hand & Mushroom and 6 cokes.... cost us like 40 bucks? yeah 6 of us ate then cannot finish somemore.
haha... not bad right.. anyway, Shawn and Francisco ordered pasta that cost like 10 bucks. haha.. should have seen Shawn's face when i told him how much the pizza cost.. haha..... Anyway, i think we got to know each other pretty well tonight.. haha. was damn fun.
Even though they are like Sec 3, i can clique with them, which is cool. haha... probably will hang out with them more often. all ver cute and sweet girls. Ethelbert also damn funny lah.. haha.. typical clown man... but fun to be around lah..

After that, sent Jobeth back home.... got a feeling i'm like going to be doing that pretty often from now on. Just like Sean sends Jolene home, cause they are neighbours.
i send jobeth back cause we're cousins.. not that i mind lah, i mean, she's great company.. haha...... yeah can talk to her lah.. =p

Then after that came home lah.. got back abt an hour ago.. haha..... oh well....
tomorrow got meeting somemore...
Lookng forward to my camp on the 2nd....
also looking forward to NYE (New Year's Eve) party at sherwin's place. yeah.. haha.. oh well.....
probably go down after mass... heh.... Supposed to wear all back for NYE mass.... dman cool sian.. hahah.... all i need is to borrow my Dad's Black tie.. hehehe
hmmm maybe i willl.... then go down to sherwin's place... if Jobeth goes i'll stay till she leaves.. haha......hopefully it own't be so soon..... haha.. stay till abt 3 in the morning, then walk her back, i'll get back at abt 4.. hmm...... good plan. haha

Neways, late liao... wil blog tomorrow if i remmeber....
nights