I don't understand this.....
i've spent the past few months trying to get over you.
i've tried countless times to get over you.
to forget you. to pretend you don't exist in my life anymore.
each and everytime i turn full circle and end up back where i am.
each and everytime, my feelings grow and grow.......

by now any normal guy would hate this....
would to a certain extent hate you, cause of all the pain, all the hurtful things that have been said.
Yet strangely i don't.. i can't.. i can't hate you....
Just as how i probably no matter how hard you tried, you would never piss me off.
i would get angry at the situation, but never at you.

Yes, i hate the fact that i'm always back where i started.....
and i do hate the fact that i can't get over you....
honestly i hate myself right now...
i hate myself because i love you so much.....

Now i'm telling myself, i'll be a friend... nothing more......
That i'll never bring up what had happened before.....
Do you have any idea how hard that is?
How hard it is for me to have to bottle up my feelings for you.
when each time i see you i just want to tell you i love you.
when each time i see you i just want to hold you and kiss you.
Yet all of this i can't do because you don't want me.
So i'll be a friend. because thats all i can be.

You tell me you were never happy with me....
I have a hard time believing that...
if only you had seen yourself then...
happiness abounded......
i'm glad you're happy now....
All i had wanted to do when we were together was to make you happy.
i guess i had failed.....
In fact i still want to make you happy...
just to see the joy in your eyes, and deep down in your soul.
i just want you to be happy....

Its a bitter sweet feeling.....
sweet because you're happy.
bitter because its not with me.
given the chance again, i could make you happy.
i would try to give you all the joy in the world.
i would try to always make you smile.
i would never make you cry........
i would never make you hurt.......

Oh, if only i had the chance again......
i wouldn't fail again... i would make you happy.....
If only......

Artist: Brian McKnight
Album: Back At One
Title: 6,8,12


Ooh, ooh
Do you ever think about me?
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep?
In the middle of the night when you're awake,
Are you calling out for me?
Do you ever reminisce?
I can't believe in nothing like this
I know it's crazy
How I still can feel your kiss

1 - It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours
Since you went away
I miss you so much and I don't know what to say
I should be over you
I should know better but it's just not the case
It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours
Since you went away

Do you ever ask about me?
Do your friends still tell you what to do?
Every time the phone rings,
Do you wish it was me calling you?
Do you still feel the same?
Or has time put out the flame?
I miss you
Is everything okay?

Repeat 1

It's hard enough just passing the time
When I can't seem to get you off my mind
And where is the good in goodbye?
Tell me why, tell me why

Repeat 1

Sing it for me
Ooh, ooh…

I've found myself once again.....
I found the old guy.... the old me.... the one who was happier.....
I'm back..... =] back for good......
Found him this afternoon whilst playing pool.....
was thinking about everything. thinking and then i found him....
and then i started having fun again......

yeah... good.... =]

i told you i'd find myself, and when i did you'd know...
messaged you today... told you....
surprised you didn't say anything...
i guess why should you care.....

you know.... i still do love you....
you blog entry, honestly i don't know who you're referring to...
i'm hoping its me... wishful thinking perhaps.. but if it is me, please tell me....
cause i've found myself once again, at long last....
its the person you fell for....
i've found me again!
honestly i'm sorry for everything i've put you through....
i'll swear upon my own life...
that i'll never cheat on you, and i've never cheated on you.
you're the one and only person i love.
that i'll never hurt you again. what's done in the past i swear is purely unintentional...
i love you too much to hurt you.
that i'll never leave your side when you need me.
it hurts me too much to leave when oyu need me the most.
That i'll never scare you off again.
i can't bear it...

i hope its still not too late....
i've found me again.... i really have....

if you're willing to take the risk again...
if you're willing to give me a chance again...
i'll do all i can not to change. i'll do all i can not to hurt you.
i'll do all i can not to scare you. i'll do everythign in my power to be who i am.
i'll do everything i can to be the one you fell in love with....

i hope you'll be willing to take that risk again.....